Christsphoenixs

Jumping-Over Sight blinded-Even Perfection-Hindsight Just-On Skirt fixed-Held Until-Armed Give-I Do to-Everything Only-Nothing Strength-Arms Massed again-Slide On-Now Damage-Arc Verified finally-Indifferent alternative-Done Juvenile-Even Roared seer-Eventually Make-Illumed All the-Height

her i sit alone your words cut knives sharpened by our companionship you tell me don't selfishness is yours i can't be similar no i can't be only you can have yet ask of me you take from me yet when i need or when i want it's usually no when i offer everything you take it all yet when i reach nothing why is this true whats wrong with me whats wrong with you isn't life sharing that's what lips speak yet all i receive is more of same from all sides surrounding or at least seems. no matter the cost i give all inside yet all is empty.

her i sit alone your words cut knives sharpened by our companionship you tell me don't selfishness is yours i can't be similar no i can't be only you can have yet ask of me you take from me yet when i need or when i want it's usually no when i offer everything you take it all yet when i reach nothing why is this true whats wrong with me whats wrong with you isn't life sharing that's what lips speak yet all i receive is more of same from all sides surrounding or at least seems. no matter the cost i give all inside yet all is empty.

I remember what is was like being young and in love i thought this girl before me was from God above yet it didn't last for long i cried a stream of tears long a fears went by and along came someone new who i thought would stick like glue but when i began to cling to closely she left leaving me lonely after her i spent years going after women and girls giving what i thought was love a whirl yet through it all this i learned love may be given yet trust is earned And love is not enough to pull through there has to be a glue concrete, a foundation that goes beyond consummation Beyond the moments passion beyond feelings fashion

he climbs from the rubble of all he was taught the undead wolves flinging thier venom at him telling him where to go who to turn to in is confusion he trips over a wire connected to some c4 it explodes creating a hole in the wall of rubble he runs free into a meadow the sun shines down on his tattered clothes he searches for signs of other life but sees none yet he hears the laughter of children he sets off in the direction of the laughter only to be hunted by the wolves as they follow him the sun begins to blocked out by dark brooding twisting clouds he starts to run to find the sun again to find the laughter the wolves hun

Love they say is wonderful I feel numb to it’s wonder Love they say opens the eyes I feel numb to it’s light Love they say can lift you up I feel numb to it’s wind Love they say can heel you I feel numb to it’s touch Love they say can move mountains I feel numb to it’s movement Love has come and gone in my life I feel like it may not be for me Love has left me damaged and torn I feel like it is only a burden Love has betrayed me more than once I feel like that is all it will ever do Love may be wonderful I feel like I am apathetic to it’s wonder Love may open the eyes I feel like I am sti

Pain killers Take another pill Smoke another Smoke Sing another Song Tell another Joke Chase another Love Drink another Drink Look another Way Watch another Movie Read another Book Pray another Prayer Anything to numb the Pain

Numb Never-living    Ever-drowning Unfilled-heart     Routine-mind Missing-air   Suffocating-dust Believing-heal    Living-numb

Embrace me I’m broken I’m damaged Only your arms Can restore me Hold me up I’m drowning I’m dying Only your breath Can give me life Free me I’m imprisoned I’m chained Only your hands Can bring freedom.

On a skittles package It reads “touch flavor” Interesting I think Since life is all about Savoring, tasting, touching, seeing, hearing Harmony, rainbows, flavor, scents, texture But do we really do that Or have we become so numb to It all that we no longer Can experience life In all it’s brilliant wonder Are we trapped by our Fears that we keep ourselves From life’s fullness From “tasting the rainbow”, “touch flavor”, “savoring harmony”, “seeing scents”, “hearing texture”.